From Neil Robert Miller imaginenine.com
July 7th, 2004

A Difficult Personal Announcement:

In mid-may of this year, 2004, I learned that I could get a no-charge medical examination at General Hospital here in town, and as I was having some difficult pains in my chest, I decided to go in and find out more.

I was given an x-ray, and told that I had a softball sized mass in my left lung, and a week later, some pieces were extracted and it was confirmed that it was lung cancer, apparently in an advanced state.

Possibilities

I was told that there were several ways that it could be treated, especially if it had not spread, which it appeared at the time that it had not.

But first there would have to be some tests done. Two months later, the tests have still not been done, and now, today, the pain has become unbearable.

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So it looks now like it will not be treated, and I presume that I will die in matter of months or weeks. I don't know that for sure, but I have no way to get the doctors to talk with me.

So.

Alone

I am entirely alone, and no longer have any way of paying for any of my expenses, including rent on my apartment and library of manuscripts and photographs, all of which currently comes to about $2,000 per month. So even if I survive, it looks like I'll be evicted shortly from my abode of 24 years, with all my materials destroyed.

Availability

I'd always hoped that the relevant paradigm materials, the background manuscripts and writings, and the thousands of photographs would eventually be at least scanned into disks, and made available in a database, or a library, or on a web-site somewhere, and perhaps even the best of them preserved in hard copy.

At this moment, though, I have no way of doing that, and have no money either to keep the materials together, nor to scan them onto disks, nor preserve them in any other way.

Onward

So it looks like I'm going to die pretty soon. The doctors have mentioned that there could be surgery, with a good outcome, but weeks are passing, the thing feels like it's growing, and I get the sense that possibilities for survival are simply passing away.

Distress

It's too bad. I was very much looking forward to living to be a hundred or thereabouts, forty more years or so. Both my parents, and most of their siblings lived into their eighties, and, I think, they could have lived much longer, and I was expecting to as well.

Not In The Cards

I have had extraordinarily robust health all my life, and have not spent a day sick in bed, nor had occasion to so much as consult a physician in thirty or forty years, although I would have anyway, if the facility had been available to me, financially speaking. What is happening, I feel, was not really "in the cards" so to speak. Physically anyway.

There are a lot of reasons that this event seems all wrong. One is that I've spent my life developing this paradigm, to the neglect of more domestic pursuits, and I'd always hoped that, with however many decades are left after it becomes publicly known, I might be a bit able to partake in some sort of family life. I've been entirely alone for nine years of the last ten, and almost thirty of the last forty, and that part has been no fun at all.

Loose Ends

There's also so many loose ends, regarding people I've known, that I'd always hoped to tie up, or reconcile in some way at some point.

Biography

And, as the discoverer of the Logical Types paradigm, I'd always hoped to one day talk out my biography to a professional biographer, more or less draw together the pieces of my life. But it appears right now like there might not be a chance for that either.

There are major dynamics about my life that I don't think I've ever read in anyone else's biography; not that they are unique to me, quite the contrary, but they are the sort of things that seem to be unreported. The specific dynamics of how this paradigm was discovered, the astounding consistency of missed opportunities, the maintenance of my own emotional tenor through so much difficulty . . . just a lot of things that I've never really sorted out . . .

I also remember that Martin King line, about, from the top of the mountain, " . . . I have seeeen the other side, I might not get there with you . . . " I should say that, for myself, a big reason for writing this paradigm, is wanting to actually live in a world where things, large and small, can be reasoned through to a work-out-well-all-around continuation. In other words, I've always very much wanted to "get there with you", so to speak.

Untimely

Then too, I feel like I'm sharper than ever, as a photographer, as a theorist, and as an explainer or teacher. I've put together a huge amount of gridwork inside, and there doesn't seem to be any deterioration at all as far as I can tell. For all that to disappear just seems like a big waste, just so untimely.

Well, there's just a lot of reasons why I'd so much like to live a healthy life for a couple more decades. Although I have not been a "happy camper", as the expression goes, regarding many aspects of my life, I am not at all pleased regarding this turn of events. It seems entirely not right.

I have heard a lot of people, in these sorts of situations, seem to decide that it must be all for the best. But it does not at all seem that way to me. To me, it seems like, regarding this apparent outcome, something's gone terribly wrong. Is it my fault? Well, I've certainly made mistakes in my life, but, I'm not the only one who has sometimes handled things poorly, regarding myself, or anyone else.

One who knows - and can acknowledge - when they're wrong (low level), is never wrong (high level); one who does not know or acknowledge when they're wrong (low level), is always wrong (high level). A homily of mine; but a derivative of many old proverbs.

I think there was a Russian one that my aunt once told me she got from her dad, from back in Russia almost a hundred years ago - 'the man who knows he's a fool is no fool'. Rewritten by me to, 'the person who knows when they've been wrong, is always right'.

One who acknowledges their own error, is always right; one who does not, is always wrong.

The reason it's true, in the context that I understand it, is that taking accurate account of mistaken things, forges the way toward a repaired, healthier continuation, while failure to know or acknowledge errors, rigidifies whatever is going wrong, worse and worse.

The Silver Locket

But to get back to my situation specifically, the real tragedy, as best I can tell, is, it looks like I'm not going to get to verbally explain and answer questions that may arise regarding the logical types paradigm that I discovered. That seems to me to be, far and away, the most important thing wrong regarding what's happened with my health.

I have long since concluded that a public understanding of the logical types system that I have discovered, and the massive raising of everyone's specifically logical, human intelligence that that would bring, constitutes the only possibility for the long term survival and health of the planet, and that if I hadn't discovered it, hadn't discovered and made concrete and literal, the structure of human intelligence, no one would have.

It's This Or It's Nothing, And It's Me Or It's No One

In other words, it's this or it's nothing, and it's me or it's no one. That's the way it has seemed to me, and it still seems that way to me.

One In Twenty

Fortunately, there have been some one hundred thousand visits to my web site over the past nine years, and as such, I presume that at least several thousand persons have therein become aware that there is a fully scientific, at least allegedly self-evidently proved challenge to the conservative paradigm which has tragically and unnecessarily dominated societies over the past several thousand years.

As such, I presume that there is at least a nominal awareness on this planet that a permanent, work-out-well-for-all solution to the great political and social problems that have plagued humankind, is in the air. At least that to date.

Neil Or No Neil

I do think that there is enough written at this site for the logical types system, and this whole paradigm system to become known and put to good use, at this point, even if I'm not around anymore, but it would be enormously better if I could personally clarify answers to the inevitable questions that will at first arise.

Human Intelligence, Made Explicit And Learnable

To repeat what has been stated throughout this site; the logical types system which I have discovered, is, the structure of human intelligence, made explicit and easy for anyone to learn. Good intelligence, and high intelligence is a learned skill.

And Logical Types, as I have articulated it, can be easily, methodically taught, like teaching reading, or geography, or literacy, or arithmetic. A learned skill.

The Structure Of Nature

Logical Types, again as I have articulated it, is also the structure by which nature is organized. It is the structure by which the human mind reaches it's most helpful organizaton, and, also, and by no coincidence, it is the structure by which all biological operations are organized.

Eternal Communism; Temporary Anomalous Conservatism

Use of the system shows that the progressive, protection-mostly-downwards dynamic is the one that conforms to nature, and that the conservative, protection-mostly-upwards dynamic, which is the one that societies have run on for the past several thousand years, bears no relation to how nature or basic human behavior works.

In other words, it shows, to I think the self-evident satisfaction of any honest person, including any honest conservative, that conservatism is not the way of nature and that it is an anti-nature system and a death system, and that the liberal and the progressive understanding is the way of nature, and of basic human behavior within it, and is a forever increasing value, eternal life among humans system.

No Cracks; Solid As A Rock

As far as I can tell, there are no cracks in the logical types and paradigm systems as I have articulated them. It's entirely solid as it stands.

But it seems to me that it would be much clearer, easier, better, no muss no fuss, if I could explain the answers to any questions that may arise and explain so many related things about this system that have occurred to me.

Engraving On A Locket

I do wish that, before I die, a facility could be made available for me to publicly give the three hour talk described in the Silver Locket, and publicly answer all the questions.

In Any Case

If that doesn't happen though, I think that there is enough written explanation available at this site, and downloaded on people's computers, and stored in the scores of databases that have copied this site, for the system to become publicly known, even if I'm gone. Not to mention the thousands of manuscripts - a quarter million pages of hard copy - sent to some two thousand recipients through the US mail over the past twenty years.

I Will The Copyrights And Materials To The Clintons

Perhaps I should herein state again what I have stated in the "just in case" note listed on the index page. That it is my wish that ownership of the copyrights to the paradigm, the charts and all paradigm related materials, in the event of my demise, goes to William Jefferson Clinton and Hillary Rodham Clinton. That includes any physical materials, that they wish to take charge of, including manuscripts, photographs, and whatever else, should they so wish. I would hope that the original charts and the finished papers in their original form, in addition to any later edited versions, become available to the general public.

Perhaps I should mention that I have no way of knowing if they are in the least bit interested, or if they have ever even heard of me. All the same, that is my will.

The Original Paradigm Charts And Volumes

So, in addition to the hundred papers that are already publicly available at the site, most of which were written since 1995 when the site went up, I have linked three more from the index page.

One is llcharts.pdf, which contains pretty much all of the original paradigm charts from 1983, 1984 and 1985.

A second is paradigm volume one, written in 1984. This is the original paradigm volume, written with the original charts in the above file, and unfortunately essentially unedited. I'd always wanted to edit it to something a little smoother and more subdued, perhaps a tad less personal, but I suppose perhaps that's not to be.

And the third is paradigm volume two, written in 1986. I now understand a lot more than I did then, and while the material is new, accurate, and most relevant, there is a tone to it that I would change if I got the chance. But again, perhaps that is not to be.

Hundreds Of Rough Papers And Drafts

There are also about 200 megabytes of material on my imaginenine.com server, which contain much relevant writing by me that is publicly available no where else.

Again, I'd love to edit it down to a couple of papers, or perhaps into a book, a fourth paradigm volume, but, again, perhaps that's not going to happen. So I'd like to make that 200 megabytes, perhaps 500 rough drafts, publicly available too if I can, for any researchers that may be interested.

Life Or Death; I Can't Tell

So, anyway, it looks like I'm going to die of this lung cancer in the next few months, or perhaps sooner. I mean, I may not, which would be great. The doctors may yet pull it out of the hat, so to speak, and I could live a long time, which would be great. But it does look like they're not intending to put out that sort of energy in my case.

Especially given my penniless state.

So.

Appeal For Funds

I would like to, at this time, appeal for funds, ask for contributions, which would allow for an orderly disposition of my tens of thousands of pages of paradigm materials. Presumably on a set of disks, and/or in a publicly available library database somewhere.

I mean, do they have a 'make-a-wish' foundation for adults?

What would I want? My home expenses covered for a few months, and being brought to a place where I could publicly put out the three-hour Silver Locket talk, in vital and well protected circumstances.

And also, the facility to answer whatever questions arise, succinctly, comprehensively, and with depth, relevance, and clarity.

Holding On And Combing Things Out

It would probably take about ten thousand dollars for me to hold everything together for the near term, which might be 'till the end of my life (although I might possibly live a long time more, I just don't know right now), and another ten or fifteen thousand dollars for the equipment and assistance and wherewithal to scan all the relevant material onto some disks, and make it available on a web-site for a couple of years anyway.

Any amount though would certainly be most helpful.

The best way to reach me is via e-mail, or by postal mail at my P.O. box at P. O. Box 31035, San Francisco, California. If you give me a phone number, I can get back to you by phone.

My regular phone sometimes works, at 415-826-1693, message only for now.

So, once again, I am asking for contributions in any amount to be sent to my P.O. Box, with an e-mail note sent to me informing me of such, and perhaps with a phone number for further communications.

Thank you very much,

And best wishes to all,

Neil Robert Miller imaginenine.com

July 7th, 2004

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